It's not you,well actually it is

So part of the reason I hadn't been blogging was because I was under a spell. Yes,a spell,a love spell.See, I had this person in my life that was,is rather important. Let me back up. Have you ever had a person that was a part of your life, went away but they always stayed on your mind? Like always?! Well, thanks to the internet you can now hunt the person down start something then leave feeling cheated,disappointed and well just done! Okay so maybe just in my experience but never the less. I thought this,this is what love is,trust,hope,understanding! Yeeeaah not so much. It was like those cars on the drag races strip,0 to 60 in seconds then nothing. A screeching stop! It was a romance for the history books. But,this one little thing. So small,so insignificant that just gnarled at me. If he's awesome,wonderful,worldly,hot,loving,why is he well ....alone. Why does he not "do labels". Aahh! Oh how I wish I could go back in time and smack the shit out of my self! Listen,people are who they tell you they are! They know themselves better than anyone! I doubted my intelligence, beauty, self worth just everything. Until I realized it really was him! I wasn't the one broken or incapable of love. I wasn't the one afraid of the possibilities. I wasn't the one looking for exceptence from people that are and will always be "no-muthafucking factors"(not a fan of reality shows,but in this context I needed to use that quote)! Okay so that statement came out of pure angry. He didn't seek exceptance just admiration from those who I deemed unworthy and immature. Anywho..I wasn't the problem! So now I stand here, proud! And I can say without a doubt, It's You! My love for him will never change but I can't and won't continue to fight a loosing battle. Now,I am not a quitter, At All but I don't do runner up or honorable mention. I'm all in no holds bar! I can now stand here and and honestly say I have no ill will. I wish him nothing but blessing for I was the one who didn't listen. Ooohh what is next in my romantic life? I'm kinda scared to ask!

Love it,Live it,Rock it
Danni